This week is going WAY too slow.
I was thinking the other day as I was walking back to my room after a class, before I got here, I didn’t even know what this place looked like. It occurs to me that I had no information whatsoever about what I was getting myself into. This was a bad idea. I’m not saying that I want to leave. I do however encourage my noble readers to thoroughly investigate important life decisions.
This leads to my pondering for this post. During psychology the other day, I got to thinking about what I’m being trained to do. When I graduate, I’m going to lead soldiers. I’ll have a platoon of people that I am responsible for, and later a company of them. Every so often that really sinks in for me. It’s not that I forget about it the rest of the time. Some days are just more thought provoking. One thing that scares me a little is that I’m not sure that a lot of people here really think about that fact. To some people at the academy, it seems like this is just school, and that after this they are going to get a job just like any other college student. But we aren’t just any other college student. I can’t help but be amazed at the culpability I will have in my job.
Some of us will be leading men in combat, others working in the rear to keep things maintained. Regardless, we will be responsible for the lives of our troops. When I was in Germany, in a sustainment and support battalion in garrison, a soldier in another company died in the motor pool from an accident. How does his PL feel after that? His CO? Do they feel responsible? Like they failed him? I have to think that I would feel that way, even if there was nothing they could really have done. And that’s just in a garrison environment; what about in combat?
I don’t really mean to be so somber, it’s just been on my mind with my old unit getting ready to head over. Some days when things are just stupid, I wish I was going with them, doing something useful, instead of sitting here picking up people’s trash and delivering their laundry.
Michael
